This has to be like the 4th or 5th one for reals, the deal is im in this new relationship with this amazing guy who absoulutely blows my mind!

But there has been a couple of times when I’d wake up next to him out of this stupid, stupid, horrible DUMB insecure dream, more like a nightmare, it makes me so distraught when I wake up from them. The dreams include him finding this girl, who’s more like him on the surface, which is weird when I think about it cause our relationship includes commmon surface likes, but theres also a lot of depth between us which makes me feel a lot more better about things as I write this. 

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It’s my sub-conscience, its my fears from the pain inflicted from past relationships, shit that I never understood. 

But I understand now, that there are some beautiful dark creatures on this earth that are capable to love, and I’ll bodly say Im one of them. Cause for a while I was scared, and never though I’d be this lucky or get to feel this connection with anyone because of how blind I was……seriously though I know this is just the beginning, and this fear will go away, the dreams wont suck as much. And all I got is love….